Overwhelmed

 

It’s been a trying night.

I’m not sure why I don’t just expect nights like these. As though it’s completely out of the norm for me to become this way. 

No matter how many times I end up this way, it feels as though it’s the first time. 

Every time.

Overwhelmed. Yes, completely. Both physically and emotionally.

The feeling as though the entire weight of the world is literally balancing it’s enormous sphereness on my shoulders. The feeling of all the minuscule things conglomerating together into a big massive blob of…well, too much.

Too much.

How can God just dole out a big helping of too much? And why? Don’t I already have enough on my plate?

That whole saying of “God will never give you more than you can handle” is for lack of a better term- crap.

After a night like tonight and many others even worse that I’ve experienced, I can tell you for sure that God does give me more than I can handle.

It hasn’t been anything huge. Tonight. Screaming children. Running through the store children. The need to get back on a budget. Broke down car. Broken sander. Yada, yada, yada. I won’t bore you with all my little things. 

I ran into a friend at the store. Lack of shower and all, I did the unthinkable- I said something to her. She recognized me! We chatted about this and that and then I went back to wrangling screaming and running children.

God gives us MORE than we can handle.

I can’t take it. And sometimes, frankly, it’s not cool. Me and God have a chat.

Here’s the kicker…

God gives us MORE than we can handle so that we will have no choice but to depend on Him. It’s too much for us but not for Him.

“Come to me, all you who are struggling hard and carrying heavy loads, and I will give you rest. Put on my yoke, and learn from me. I’m gentle and humble. And you will find rest for yourselves. My yoke is easy to bear, and my burden is light.” – Matthew 11:28-30

Struggling hard? Yep that’s me!

Carrying heavy loads? Me, me! It feels like the world. Can I let go now? 

I want rest. I will trade this burden the size of Oklahoma any day for a lighter one.

Thank you Jesus that you see me like this. You meet me right here in the messy and jacked up. I’m saying uncle now and turning it over to you. I want to be overwhelmed by you.

So I pray tonight for peace. I ask for any who are with me feeling this overwhelmed with the world on their shoulders, Lord that you will come to them. Meet them right where they are. Comfort them with your love. Give them rest. Take our burdens, no matter how large or small. We want your rest. We want you Jesus.

Amen.